max_ryeo_chu @ 2009-07-08T01: 36:00
I am guilty of loving you, I am guilty of idolatrarte, I am guilty of blame and I'm mostly to blame for not being who or how it should be.
I am not nor will I be the person that should be reflected in the mirror and it infuriates me and breaks my heart, I am worthless, it is normal not fight for me because I am nothing, not worth the penalty.
that love is killing me and if I lied and told you that love is gone, that too would kill me, because I can not either with or without you, I know I am like others say, a largest number listed, and naive I thought that perhaps the thing that asshole cambiaríay'm thinking it might be worthwhile, that it would be one more ....
I'm stupid, I really am a stupid and naive, thinking I would be something worthwhile, worth
not know? I want you, I love you and idolize you, but they all have razóny both crying does not solve anything, in the end after all the promises we stayed in words and I have a broken heart.
Sometimes I think, God I can do? q I have to do? as I call her anyone feel like getting attention at his side, to be special, to be somebody, but in the end little by little I felt defeated, and perhaps for this, because I am worth it, because I hate myself that much I can not look in the mirror
know? I started to vomit, I have not done more than twice, I did not vomit, is something different, I get nervous, do not stop to mourn, and suddenly I can hardly breathe ... vomiting, so it has happened, the truth, hardly as much work and I prefer to keep busy, I go to the gym, so maybe I relax, but can not stop thinking about it, but I'm tired While sometimes I feel that my eyes would be closed
always wanted to wait for me, wished you loved me, wanted to be someone for you, do not know if I am, but I feel nothing, I feel like a shit and I guess after all, that's what I should be, because you've become my world, a world that ignores me, a world that I venerate, the q desire, I want to draw attention but I always give back
not stop the tears, the fear is so great and my hatred towards myself
increases disgust I am so, so sorry to be
wish I could help, but know? words drown in my fake smiles
but every time I want to escape the spider web gets bigger and wrapped me tightly, the voices become weak, the will to fight are gone, I feel bad person, I feel guilty and alone and afraid I have, this should not be so, but do not understand why it is, tell me that I have q to do, please tell me I have to do to be happy with you, ask me so please be q, but q need to stop, need to be myself again
know what sucks give yourself?
so I feel, because otherwise I need it like I need
worthless I have fear, I have .... too scared and do not know will happen
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